It always amazes me how the world just continues its every day course even when one's own world seems so unsure. Today I read about a woman who kept a "God Box". In this box she put all sorts of prayers and at times some thank you notes to God. It was a way of putting one's worries in a place of faith and hope and turning your back and letting God do his blessed work. I smile because I am a avid prayer. I pray every where and at all hours. Sometimes I feels as if God is overwhelmed by my endless amount of talk and request.

Praying helps take anxiety away. It provides an unknown sanctuary where my heart's quiet aches take refuge. Where my sorrows are held and supported with love. Where I truly believe that God is listening and saying "Don't worry dear, I am taking care of all this stuff, but you have to give me time to work on it."

Today I started my own "God Box" and I put my thoughts on paper and then folded it neatly for neatness counts even in heaven. I do admit it was rather lengthy and I was hoping to keep it to a post it size but alas it just was. I did want to add a few more prayers to my list but I thought those I will save for when I go for a drive or a walk or to put in box tomorrow.

I am tired. So tired of my thoughts and worry. I am tired mostly of being unsettled. For the past 15 years I've endeavored in things to help promote stability in relationships, home and work but to my amazement, as one friend put it, "wow, your life is just constantly unraveling". Optimistically though, she did say that I've always managed to get through it all. But, you know what it is "I am just so tired of swimming uphill against the current" - I don't want to get through it. I want it to be ok just this once.